I think I'm an addict
Posted: Tue Feb 02, 2010 12:29 pm
power corrupts
the better I tune into my iron horse the faster it goes
the better it behaves, the worse I behave
its getting too easy
I get drunk on power
addicted to adrenaline
I don't like when people talk about the dangers of bikes, or the dangers of anything too much. Obviously we accept certain dangers, make our plans and leave the rest up to chance/god/karma/(insert philosophy here).
I'm quite occupied with my mortality at the moment, and I think its quite important. thats why I'm asking you guys what you think.
the strange thing is I wanted to upgrade. But I'm already worried about myself on a VFR400.
I've been riding about 2-3 years.
I'm becoming quite a beast, just whacking it over into corners, and doing things that were too complicated for me before, hardly needing to think. I'm pleased, but it also scares me.
I used to regard myself as a very safe rider, but I see myself taking too many opportunities, a half a second thought to whether something is okay or not, then suddenly I'm committed to the action, 3 seconds of adrenaline, then afterwards I'm wondering "was that OK?"
I'm not considering things carefully enough, far ahead enough. I'll think to myself 'can I get past this car etc with enough time.' If the answer is yes, I go for it, but then I find myself moving down the same road at 4x the speed, and probably 2x the speed I'd normally travel on that road if there were no obstructions in my lane, and then I think to myself 'If a car or a person ran across the road or something, I'd be fucked.'
I know these things, I know one is supposed to consider everything carefully, all the time. But one needs to keep doing it. And somehow I just stop doing it occasionally. Thats the problem.
Lately I wonder a lot. Bikes are awesome, but how the fuck do you stay alive riding them for 60 years?
Slow the fuck down, slow the fuck down?
I'm confused at this point.
I like having a fully functional body, and I wouldn't trade that for the joy of riding.
People used to tell me "bikes are dangerous" and I'd say "its mostly up to you". now thats mostly the problem.
If I ride very conservatively in traffic, and then give it the beans when things are open, then I think I'd have a fair chance of a lifetime of riding unscathed.
My one friend gave up riding road bikes. He said he would have killed himself if he kept riding them. I thought he's an idiot and said "Why don't u just have some self discipline". Haha. easier said than done.
I could just decide to be a slow rider. Its also an ego thing. I feel the urge to be competitive. Often I find myself riding above my comfort level trying to leave other riders behind. For my stupid ego.
If I'm brutally honest...
I ride fast for adrenaline and the enjoyment of the movement, its like a dance, its like expressing yourself through motion. Its an awesome feeling.
I pass cars and riders for ego, and for the feeling of freedom that nothing is holding me back.
the better I tune into my iron horse the faster it goes
the better it behaves, the worse I behave
its getting too easy
I get drunk on power
addicted to adrenaline
I don't like when people talk about the dangers of bikes, or the dangers of anything too much. Obviously we accept certain dangers, make our plans and leave the rest up to chance/god/karma/(insert philosophy here).
I'm quite occupied with my mortality at the moment, and I think its quite important. thats why I'm asking you guys what you think.
the strange thing is I wanted to upgrade. But I'm already worried about myself on a VFR400.
I've been riding about 2-3 years.
I'm becoming quite a beast, just whacking it over into corners, and doing things that were too complicated for me before, hardly needing to think. I'm pleased, but it also scares me.
I used to regard myself as a very safe rider, but I see myself taking too many opportunities, a half a second thought to whether something is okay or not, then suddenly I'm committed to the action, 3 seconds of adrenaline, then afterwards I'm wondering "was that OK?"
I'm not considering things carefully enough, far ahead enough. I'll think to myself 'can I get past this car etc with enough time.' If the answer is yes, I go for it, but then I find myself moving down the same road at 4x the speed, and probably 2x the speed I'd normally travel on that road if there were no obstructions in my lane, and then I think to myself 'If a car or a person ran across the road or something, I'd be fucked.'
I know these things, I know one is supposed to consider everything carefully, all the time. But one needs to keep doing it. And somehow I just stop doing it occasionally. Thats the problem.
Lately I wonder a lot. Bikes are awesome, but how the fuck do you stay alive riding them for 60 years?
Slow the fuck down, slow the fuck down?
I'm confused at this point.
I like having a fully functional body, and I wouldn't trade that for the joy of riding.
People used to tell me "bikes are dangerous" and I'd say "its mostly up to you". now thats mostly the problem.
If I ride very conservatively in traffic, and then give it the beans when things are open, then I think I'd have a fair chance of a lifetime of riding unscathed.
My one friend gave up riding road bikes. He said he would have killed himself if he kept riding them. I thought he's an idiot and said "Why don't u just have some self discipline". Haha. easier said than done.
I could just decide to be a slow rider. Its also an ego thing. I feel the urge to be competitive. Often I find myself riding above my comfort level trying to leave other riders behind. For my stupid ego.
If I'm brutally honest...
I ride fast for adrenaline and the enjoyment of the movement, its like a dance, its like expressing yourself through motion. Its an awesome feeling.
I pass cars and riders for ego, and for the feeling of freedom that nothing is holding me back.